Bristol, United Kingdom in a week.
So scared so excited so anxious so intimidated so everything. I try to look so cool about it and go all "psh this is no big deal, it's just the UK!" but c'mon, let's face it, this will be a whole new country and although I've been there several times now, I've never had to live somewhere so far away from home.
They say college was 'practice'. But was it really ? When I could go home once in two weeks (ok fine maybe every week) and dump my laundry at home and have good home-cooked food and laze in my own bed while I complain about the heat. 5 days in college is not practice. It's not even close to a 'warm-up'. We're talking 9 months in a foreign country!!
I've always wanted this and now that it's time for me to go, I kinda just want to stay home a little longer. Be with the people at home a little longer. Eat nasi berlauk a lot more and a lot longer. Drive around a little longer. Have dinner plans with my friends a little longer. Lepak a little longer.
Hmm maybe Papa's suggestion to study here (all a joke because he reckons I eat way too much Malay food to survive in the UK) wasn't such a bad idea after all...
Ok no. I always have to remind myself that I've wanted this all my life. To do what my parents did. To study and graduate in the UK. To travel Europe with friends. To experience 4 seasons. To take a train to different parts of England to visit friends. MasyaAllah, how fast time flies. I seriously can vividly remember the car rides home with Mama and she tells me her stories of her university days in the UK. When we've reached home, we would even just stay in the car and I'd listen to her little adventures. It was then, I knew I wanted to do this.
And so I'm here, a week away from boarding the flight to Heathrow airport. The exciting part is that I'm flying with 5 of my other friends. Dahlah all sama row! Hahaha how horribly close-knitted of a group are we, huh? That should soften the blow for when I say bye to my family. Hwaaaaaaaaaaaa such an Asian kid lah. Most Westerners have their kids fleeing from homes at the age of 17/18 and here I am, a 20 year old girl and can't say bye to home yet. And don't want to ever!!!!
But I guess, there has to be that time in life where we have to move forward. From a heartbreak, from a disappointment, from home. As much as I would love being at home, I think I'd be awfully sad not being able to further studies abroad with my mates. It would have been torture to see Instagram photos later on!
I can't wait for this new chapter of my life to begin (um ok how boring is this line)
Let's start again.
Like every season finale of a TV series, the end of college had its bits and pieces of happy and sad and -with A-Levels results unknown to all of us (thus our future)- suspenseful. It was such a good season and I treasure it all and I'd do it all over again. I'm so familiar with the characters and the plots that I just kinda want to stay put and not go anywhere for fear the next season will change things and I liked things the way they were. But more than anything really, I kinda want to watch that new season. I can't wait for the new episode. The trailer/promo looked freaking exciting and all you can do while waiting for the new season to start is to replay the 30 second sneak peak and hope for the best for your characters. But I can't wait. I'm impatient. I want the new season to start now. Sure, some characters won't be there anymore and there will be plot twist at the most unexpected times and we'd all be talking about it with friends and/or Twitter but man, I just want to see what happens.
And that's how university is for me. The promo of this new episode showed the second college ended. Excited and thrilled to be hooked on a new and fresh season. And the 3 months of wait is finally coming to an end. We're all finally here, moments away from tuning in to the new season we've talked about these past few months.
And by next week when I board the plane, I'll be clicking 'Play' and tuning in my own new episode.
May God bless us all in this scary/exciting/intimidating/thrilling new experience. MasyaAllah I can't wait!