Sunday, November 30, 2014

Löbster Rôll

My last weekend in London was amazeballs because I got to satisfy so much of my food cravings!! I spend a bomb on just food lah seriously. Because I hardly go out in Bristol so I'd like to think I save my money here.... to only blow it on good food in London. But as Drake would say, "YOLO!"

This was actually the week of the AKYUEM Reunion when we got our Wafflemeister fix. If you've been to the one in KLCC and didn't like it, totes understandable. But it's so different here and it's so much more sedap. Maybe cause it's cold and a hot class waffle cannot ever go wrong... EVER! 

Last Summer when Tania was in London, my aunt treated us for lobster noodle and my God, was it good! So I just randomly suggested Mandarin Kitchen for lunch one day and we all went. SO GOOD, GUYS!!!!! After I tweeted this photo, it just went on a upward spiral and soon after everyone was eating lobster hahaha can't wait to go again with the rest of the gang in December. 

... and I wanted waffles after lobster noodle so we walked to Snowflake. Their gelatos, man. 

Went to Tok Aa's place the next morning to meet up with my cousins and aunty and uncle and I was greeted with warm hugs and NASI LEMAK! Yes, guys. That's the roast duck from Noodle Oodle. Yummers, man! Misha took a photo of me and sent it to my mum and my mum replied with a, 

"She must be on her second helping by now kan?"

This is why my mum is my bestfriend because when she replied that, I was actually on my 2nd helping lolllllz how can you not with all that food!!!! 

And on my last night in London, Diy and I finally went for the very very hyped Burger & Lobster. That was my first time after hearing so much of it from everyone! It was good of course because it's lobster but after a while it got a bit jelak. But I was thoroughly kenyang after that so it was a good dinner. If you've not tried it then you totally still should! I had the lobster role as recommended by Diy so it's basically lobster stuffed in a brioche with fries and salad. OBVIOUSLY I ate the salad.... like one leaf and the croutons in it and then I just handed it all over to Diy. 

We also went for GBK and Khan's so that was a seriously fulfilling weekend food-wise. 

And when I thought I had it good here, my cousin sent a photo of Mak Tok's cooking in Penang............



(kidding, guys. Still very thankful for all the food I have here but very hard to not want daging kurma, udang kunyit and kari ayam from home ok!)

Saturday, November 29, 2014


Here's a not so funny story that happened to me, come come let me share the story of my misfortune with you.

So I was on my way back from London to Bristol, this was at 10:40pm. In my carriage, there were only like, 4 other people besides me.

Before Bristol, there are 3 stops ; Reading, Didcot Parkway and Swindon. I slept in between those stops but I managed to wake up for every single stop because I ***thought*** I was sleeping lightly.

Guess not, huh?

I was so confident when we were at Swindon and I thought I'm just going to close my eyes for just a few minutes and the next thing I know, I'll be back in Bristol.

I was supposed to reach Bristol by 12:45 and when I woke up it was 12:50. And at first I panicked but then I remembered the train had delayed for 10 minutes so technically we shouldn't arrive Bristol yet, right?


And Azam had texted me throughout and his last text was,

"You should be back in Bristol now right? Right?"

In my head I was like, "Err... I'm not?"

And the next thing I knew, the announcement went something like,

"The next stop will be Newport".


What the hell?!?!?!?!?!

I quickly opened my Google Maps just to make sure that there wasn't a stop between Swindon and Bristol and my heart SUNK when I saw that we had long passed Bristol.

I freaked the f- out!

I went up to the guy infront of me and asked him kindly without letting him know that I was obviously freaking the hell out.

"Excuse me, what's the next stop?"



I called Sarah immediately and told her I was on my way to Cardiff and I'm going to need a place to bunk in for the night and thank God she wasn't already asleep! And thank God I had her there! What if I had missed Cardiff as well and ended up in Swansea!?!?!?!?! Who was I supposed to call then!??!?! Gila. I can't even imagine!!

I took the 10 am train the next day back to Bristol and you BET I didn't fall asleep. I was wide-eyed awake the whole time hahahah

Lessons learnt : 

i. Don't sleep on the train. Keep yourself occupied with anything!
ii. Put your alarm on anyway if you do decide to take a nap.
iii. Make friends anywhere and everywhere. You never know when you need to bunk in their place on a cold winters night when you make a stupid mistake like oversleeping and missing your stop.


Thursday, November 27, 2014

Syazwan's Surprise Birthday x AKYUEM Reunion

Last weekend was super fun - the most fun I had in ages! Started the weekend with having friends over to Bristol and I took them places....... ok so places would just include lunch at Zaza's Bazaar and then we aimlessly walked to find 'coloured houses' because apparently that was what Bristol is known for. Yeah, so we walked here and there because Nens was super determined to find these 'coloured houses'. We did find some houses that were coloured but they were depressing and did not look like anything like how they were pictured on the magnet that Nens got for herself and so we just took obligatory photos and left for the Clifton Suspension Bridge.

It was already super dark and cold and windy so we were at the bridge for just a little bit - Bristol is pretty beautiful at night and when all the lights were lit.

(with Syir, Nens and Fazmir!)

Left for London with Fazmir along at 1pm the next day and settled down at Diy's place before leaving again for Syazwan's surprise do. Met up with Azam because it was a potluck thing so seeing how we were traveling from Bristol, we didn't bring anything along from home (not that I was going to cook up anything but y'know) so we settled for Tinseltown's chicken wings. Didn't get to try them because everyone else brought other things so I was busy eating that lol

But the surprise was a success, nevertheless! It was so nice meeting everyone again! I miss dinner parties like how we would do in KL. It's a bit more difficult to gather everyone as 2nd year becomes more and more hectic so when we do meet up, it's really fun.

So many people who aren't KY think we can be a bit too overwhelming 'cause we are constantly around each other but what can I say, man, that's what 2 years of literally living with each other does to you. From morning to nights, we are constantly around each other and for those 2 years we were each other's family so it's only natural for us to graduate and have that same tight bond. #sorrytaksorry

We played Heads Up (and we separated into Boys v Girls so it was even more kecoh and intense) and Mafia which was EVEN more intense because if you've played the game, it's basically just blaming and betraying each other hahaha but was so funny and fun and kinda wanted to play it the whole night.

So difficult to see Pana around 'cause she's a hermit like me and we hardly go out and we're always too lazy to make an effort and we still complain that we don't meet enough new people hahahah

One with the ladies! 

That night was seriously gila fun because I've not laughed so much in ages so it was such a good stress reliever and very much needed after a month of constant work! 

The next day was our AKYUEM Reunion - our very first one! Told this to my brother the other day and he said 

"... Reunion ? Don't you guys meet up every time anyway ?"

... yeah well ok he got a point

It was great fun despite the late start but it was nice to meet everyone again like how we would for a KY event in the Great Hall. We even took photos by Houses and batch and just like how kecoh it was in the great hall, it was just as kecoh in London! Makes me miss KY more, really. The friends I gained from that place > anything else.


(with Miss Kecoh #1 and Miss Kecoh #2)

1/2 of my fav Diyana's ever. 

L54 was like my second home in KY next to my own. 

Batch 14.0 

With my Garnet juniors whom I love loads and they're really cute lah


Missing Amal, Kanda and Marissa especially because my KY experience had a lot a lot to do with them also so I missed them a lot during the reunion because I know they wouldn't have missed it for anything in the world! 


Tuesday, November 18, 2014


It's completely normal to feel down in the dumps and feeling like you're in a rut.

There will be days where you don't feel like doing anything and there will be nights where you just can't sleep because you're thinking about way too many things for way too long.

There's no cure, really. There's no real concrete solution to stop the way we're feeling. We want it to stop, obviously but there's nothing we can do.

Feelings are feelings; they're inevitable.

"Why must this happen to me?"

There must be a reason. You just have to know that everything happens for a reason. People come into your life for a reason so it's just as well that they leave for a reason too.

It hurts. Really really hurt. The kind of hurt that you didn't think you'd experience. The kind of hurt that you'd think you'd get used to after some time.

Truth is, you don't.

You won't get used to it. No matter how much you build a fort for yourself. No matter how much you put your guard up. No matter how much you think you're okay.

You bring yourself to that place in your mind and in your heart, and you're back to square one before you even know it.

And then the tears well up.

"It'll pass" you say to yourself. Almost like a mantra. Like a broken record.

But it hasn't and you fear that it won't for a long time.

The only form of comfort is knowing that this is a phase. You have to know it's a phase. It has to be a phase. This can't go on forever.

"You have to have faith that you'll get over it." - this is what I tell my friends all the time whenever they cry to me or tell me things that have upset them or made them sad.

But it's way easier said than done.

You don't just get over things just like that. Especially not when you've invested in your feelings and time and effort for something and for someone.

It's going to take time, so all I can really say is to you, my friend, is to endure it and hold it out for as long as you can. It's going to be a tough one and you're going to still text me late night asking what to do and pour your heart out to me and you'll ask for my advice and I can tell you everything you want to hear but ultimately, it is up to you.

You have to move on at your own pace. So if it's going to take another 2 weeks or another 2 years, let it be. The problem is when you rush into it. When you are so quick to tell yourself to get up and get out of this rut. You're forcing yourself to be good and do good. It's ego. Your ego is telling you you're better than this and you should quit feeling so low. But shut that ego up and listen to yourself. You're hurt. You're sad. Do that first instead of being coerced into being something and someone you're not at that specific moment. Take it one by one. Don't just snap yourself out of it. You can't. It's difficult.

It's going to hurt. You're going to be sad. You're going to immerse yourself in a pit of self-pity. You're going to drown yourself in a pool of "Why?"'s. You're going to cry when you think too much into it. You're going to be lonely. You're going to feel empty.

And that's okay.

You just have to have faith that there will be a day when you wake up one day and you realise that you're better. You're better and you're finally okay.

That day will come. You just have to believe it will. So I'm not going to tell you to cheer up now and to be okay now.

I'm going to tell you to take your time.

Take your time to be okay, you will get there soon enough.


Thursday, November 13, 2014

Box of Lies

This is me attempting to colour my hair all on by my own effort. I was like,

"Right, no big deal, just mix that into that, shake it, and put on your gloves and just lather it all over your hair, psh why do we pay so much for this at the salon?"


I didn't even sempat to put the gloves on and I already tertumpah some of the colour cream. The klutz in me never fails to show up at times like these. Thank God I had the logical sense in me to lay the floor with newspaper.

And the universe was telling me I was going to be in a right big mess if I was going to do on my own. And just as I was about to start, my housemates came in to ask about something and when they saw what I was doing, I just succumbed and asked them nicely if they could do my hair for me hihi

So they did! 

I just had to goyang kaki and refresh Instagram and contemplate whether cooking and eating fries at 10:30 is a good idea or not...

As usual, hair colour didn't look like how it was depicted on the box. It never does! I'm too scared to get anything too light because I kinda don't wanna be blonde or anything like that. So I just went with "light golden brown'.


My weekend officially starts tomorrow after 1pm and I can't wait. I'm super determined to have a great weekend because the past few ones were quite disappointing. I can't wait to see my favourite friends and to genuinely have many many many hearty laughs and good food.

(I'm currently seriously seriously considering having some french fries [who are we all kidding? Of course I'm going to fry them???] and I'm having such good feels from listening to old Babyface songs 'cause they remind me of my parents so much!)


Saturday, November 8, 2014

November 2014 Favourites

So I did a huge, colossal mistake of taking a 'nap' at 6:30 pm. Everyone who knows me know that I am severely incapable of just taking a 'nap'. Why 'nap' for half an hour when you can sleep for a good 4 hours?????? Thank God tomorrow is a Saturday!

It's November 7th now and I did a monthly favourites thing on October 7th so I'm going to try and stick to that. Let's hope.


Taylor Swift's 'Style' is a pretty cool anthem, I must admit. It's so catchy and nice to groove to. I'm not really a huge fan of hers because her music is a bit too happy happy jumpy kinda thing but this is a really good one. But 'Style' is my favourite of her new album '1989' everyone's on about.

Other than that, I'm just basically on the same playlist as before.


How To Get Away With Murder is seriously SLAYIN' it. It's SUCH an amazing show, for y'all who've not watched it, please do yourself a great favour and watch the show now!! There's nothing that Shonda Rhimes can't do and I sound like a broken record but honestly, she is the real TV goddess.

I'm still watching Scandal and Grey's but HTGAWM is kinda my favourite out of the three as of now. However.... I don't know how I feel about Scandal. It's actually getting quite repulsive for me. It pains me to watch it but it's still good. Anybody who watches the show would know the main love story of Fitz and Olivia, right? And it's been a tug of war between those two. And it's getting quite tiring. The new episode is sooooo ugh! The whole time I was watching it, I was just so annoyed and uncomfortable. This is the thing, right. The show prides on being feminist. How can you not be, though? Lead character is a female and she plays such a dominant person, she runs her own mean business and she's feared and loved by so many. She tells people what to do and how many times have we heard her say, "No one tells me what to do. No one!" ? And then her love story is so contradictory to that ? She's being swayed by this cheating a-hole who can't give two hoots about his wife?????? Ugh I hate cheating partners everywhere, I'm so passionately hateful towards them that I might seriously lead a No-Cheating-Your-Partner movement though I won't know what we'd do. But still! And Olivia is so vulnerable to him ALL. THE. TIME. Like, c'mon for someone who stands her ground and ideals every damn time, you'd think she'd have some self control over this guy. And how he always calls her and he looks like SUCH a lovestruck high school boy and it's really sickening. Ok rant over but if any of you feel the same please tell me because I need a Scandal ranting partner!! I'm really trying to not watch more of it because I just feel so peeved after every episode!


DUDE, I just watched Gone Girl (finally!) with Azam the other day and um???? Pretty sick movie, innit! It was really really good, I love movies like that with its plot turns and twists and just keeps you in the seat the whole 2 and a half hours of it! Pretty long and was a bit dragged out at first but then! When that happened and then that happened, I was just in awe. I kinda want to read the book now. But I always say that and I end up not reading anyway so let's just see how that goes. I've also hopped on the Ben Affleck bandwagon. He's such a superb actor! And not to mention, a swoon-worthy dreamboat.

I can't wait for Mockingjay though! And Interstellar (though it looks a bit trippy) and The Imitation Game starring Benedict Cumberbatch. A good time to be alive, people!

Fashion x Shopping

It's starting to get **real** cold in the UK and the wind and the rain, dudes, they're not playin' around, man. It's so painful to have your face smacked with strong wind with cold rain drops. So now, I don't even bother looking at anything that aren't winter appropriate. I survive last winter with no gloves and got a earful from my mum but I kinda just had them in my pockets but this year, I might just need to get myself a good pair because that's how cold it's gotten! I got myself a pair of knee high boots though!!! And I'm so crazy over it! Been meaning to get a pair but afraid it was going to make me look short but then I figured, everything and anything is going to make me look short anyway right?

Taken from

(and guys, I've gotten myself an umbrella)

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Have a productive weekend, everyone. Or not. Yeah, just sleep in lah when else can you do this, right?


Wednesday, November 5, 2014


I don't remember the last time I had my nails painted! I keep forgetting to do it and then before I know it, time to cuti ends and bare nails for the next 1 month. Repeat cycle.


I went to the city again today for the sole purpose of getting an umbrella because yesterday, as I was walking to uni, it rained. And it rained heavily. It was pouring so instead of walking the whole way (which is what I always do), I decided to just wait at the bus stop (that btw does not have any form of shelter) because according to the bus schedule, one was due in like 2 minutes. My umbrella was broken so I didn't even bother bringing it and so I only had my scarf to cover my head.

Guys, it was pouring. 

And 2 minutes passed and then 5 minutes passed and the rain was coming down like no one's business. I could see the pity on everyone's faces who passed me by in their cars. It was 15 minutes to class. So I decided to walk back home and just call a taxi. 

I walked back, drenched. As I approached my house, I called the taxi and as I was about to ask for one, it stopped raining completely.


So I was still on the line with the taxi operator and I was thinking hmmm should I pay £7 for taxi fare (yeah taxis here are RIDICULOUS, you'd think we were living in freakin' London or something) considering it's stopped raining and walking would be free or speed walk to uni since class is starting in 10 minutes time and the walk to uni takes 10 minutes. 

My financially sensible part of me said, "£7 can buy you a GBK lunch, so just walk" so I did. Uphill. I don't make such a big deal because after some time, the walk uphill isn't too bad. Unless, of course you're rushing for class.

Which I was. 

I hate being late for class so I walked as fast as my body could permit (I was on an empty stomach by then) and record time, babes! 6 minutes!! Wahhhhhh so tiring, I was panting so much by the end of the uphill.

I was wearing the flimsiest of flats so I had to battle water puddles and my scarf was wet from the rain and it was cold and windy so by the time I reached the top of the hill, I was breathless and could not feel my legs.

I made it to class just in time but I was still panting ridiculously. One would think I just got done with a marathon or something. But um??? It kinda was like one???

So I vowed to get an umbrella. I told myself "Buy 2 if you have to!" It was a necessity at this point because I don't have a jacket or coat that comes with a hood so I pretty much go around with my scarf as the only form of shelter from the unpredictable rain that UK is all too familiar with. You NEED to get one, I told myself. A must!!! Have one at home, in your handbag, in your school bag, just get a damn umbrella.

I went to the city today for the sole purpose of getting myself one. So semangat to buy.

So firstly, I went to Primark and got a pair of boots to last me til December because my Topshop and H&M flats were not doing me any good and now that it's getting colder, I need to get serious with my footwear (my good ones are at my grandaunt's house in London and I completely forgot to take them back with me) but as always, I got sidetracked just a bit. Then, I went to M&S to get my favourite prawn crackers and some other things. I bumped into Sofia and sat down with her for a bit before getting the bus back home.

On the way home, I remembered something.

I forgot to buy the umbrella.


Sunday, November 2, 2014

Clutches and Lush

I've been swamped with work lately so you mix that with my natural born laziness, I haven't been out of the house or anywhere else besides classes this past week. So I thought, ok good good this can go on for another 2 weeks right???? Imagine all the money I can save from not going out!!!! And I'm heading to London for the weekend in 2 weeks time so more money I can spend there right!?!?


I succumbed and went out today. But it took me a long time to really really make a decision whether I should go out or not.

Reason #1 : I've been using my housemate's kettle all this while and I've been on my green tea kick right so I depend on her kettle ONLY. Lately, she was ill so she had her kettle upstairs because she couldn't be bothered to come up and down every time she needed hot water and ever since, she's had it upstairs in her room. So my green tea fix was put on hold. I thought it was just going to be a day but then it went on for 3 days and then 5 and then 2 weeks?!?!?! I can't go more than 2 days without green tea so I thought it was a bit ridiculous that I didn't have my own kettle. So that was my reason #1.

Reason #2 : It was sunny and gorgeous outside. It's rather odd, to be honest. It's already November but it's still nice and so warm but I hope this will go on til the rest of winter lah because it's so lovely to not be shivering to my bones. So I asked myself, "What if this is the last sunny day out???" and I thought I needed some sunshine anyway (I've been cooped up at home eating Fredo chocolates, seriously, it's quite disgusting ok) (as I type this out, I'm reaching out for Fredo chocolates which I've strategically placed on my bedside table) (all 3 packets of them) (each packet got half dozen) (so that's 18 pieces of Fredos) (help please).

Reason #3 : I was out of my favourite facial wash from Lush. And I had no more cotton buds. And my body soap was running out. AND I GOTTA STAY CLEAN, PEOPLE!

Reason #4 : I no longer had to rush to do my work because I was occupied with it the whole of last week and the due date, I just found out, has just recently been pushed for another 2 weeks and I'm already 3/4 done so phew! Figured I should give myself some break.

So I did. I was still unsure and I was pacing up and about after my shower and contemplating hmm should I or should I not? Sunny days or comfy bed with no make-up? But ooh I need more soap ahh but there's still a LITTLE bit left oh but wait cotton buds ala tapi can borrow from Selina hmmmm I miss green tea but umm I could just hold it out til Monday ?


I decided to go out. I needed to not feel like such a damn hermit and I should dress up a bit and leave the house to see the world and to see people. Put on Taylor Swift's 'Style' (it's really good!) and eventually I was done and ready to go out.

So I did get my kettle from Wilko and it's pretty in purple. And UK really has changed me because I left the store feeling so content and I wanted to hug it and I was so happy to get home to make me some green tea.

But all this obviously after an unnecessary detour to Primark. I don't even know why I bother with the amount of people that flood Primark on the weekends. But I haven't been in so long so thought I'd pop by and see what's new and not get anything......

...... um lol you'd think after 21 years of living, I'd know myself more right? Long queues ain't a problem when you find a bag like this...

Dude, seriously. HOW BEAUT!!! It's a baby pink crossbody bag but the strap is soooo long so I'm just going to carry it as a clutch. But when I saw this, I immediately grabbed it and then I saw it in black so...

Sorry guys, but I just had to! And they were only £6 !!!! They don't look like they're from Primark eeep I'm so happy I got these!

And then I went into Lush and the smell my God! So overwhelming sometimes but I always get so rambang mata when I'm in there. But I was sensible enough and only got what I needed. Promise!

Ugh as if it's not enough that I already love Lush's products, now they have cute pink paper bags ugh love it

So only after Lush did I go into Wilko to get myself my very own kettle. Getting my priorities straight has never been my strongest trait.