Be better

At this very moment, I'm almost tearing up listening to a Korean ballad, waiting for my rice to be done, anxiously waiting for the next 'She Was Pretty' episode and contemplating whether I should get that pink jacket from Zara.

More often than not, I always wonder what people are doing. When I was young, I would always wonder to myself

"What is Britney Spears doing at this EXACT moment?"

Really. I'd do it all the time because I just feel like how cool is it that I'm here eating nasi berlauk at home and Britney Spears might be performing somewhere to a crowd of 50,000 people.

I've been really into reading Humans of NY posts on Instagram. I've followed them a while ago and I've always found their posts to be really interesting. But recently, there was a collection of stories by refugees and it really is something else.

So as I'm here on my bed, waiting to hear that 'Click!' sound my rice cooker makes when it's done, with the heater next to me, I also wonder what some people are going through at this very exact moment.

Humans of NY is an amazing platform to let the world know of the hardships people go through. Everytime I read a difficult story, I become more and more grateful for everything I have. Some people have gone through really hard times and at such a young age and here I am, healthy and well with my great family and friends, studying abroad. This is luxury - the life I'm living. It really puts things into perspective.

I used to really complain about the things I didn't have but I've grown to stop doing that. For everything I don't have, I have a thousand more things to be thankful for. So I always try to stop myself from whining and being bratty because what I have, what I've had, what I'm doing, what I've done, where I am and where I've been have all been an incredible blessing and I am thankful beyond description. I'm reminded of this daily, if not every minute of the day.

I hope to only be a better person as I grow older because for everything I had and have, it's the one and only thing I can do. There's no reason at all for me to be bitter and difficult to other people so that's my resolution now onwards. To just be better.

xx