Angry Me

One of my colleagues said something along the lines of,

"We're all capable of being bitchy, it's just the matter of whether we allow ourselves to show it or not"

And I think it's true.

We all - to a certain extent and limit - can be mean. It's within us, it's pretty natural for us to get angry and thus, pretty natural for us to burst every once in a while. We have a limit and we're not perfect. You're not human if you don't allow yourself to be angry. 

Today's a bitchy day for me. And I don't really know why. 

Or maybe I do.

It could be all the commotion at work today. Or it could be that nothing went my way. It could be that I haven't had full 8 hours of sleep in the past few days. It could also be that I haven't had rice for the past 3 days. It could be that drivers on the road have pissed me off an incredible amount today. I didn't find anything funny - not even the things that would make me laugh on any other day. I'm actually, at this very second, really annoyed at both my mum and sister for not replying my messages. It's like this fire in my bones and it's igniting the bitchiness in me. Also, I'm not really sorry for saying bitch about a million times over in this post.

I don't know, man. Does PMS really stand for pre-menstrual syndrome or post-menstrual syndrome 'cause I'm really feeling the latter. I mean, I hate everything and everyone around the few days before my period but I'm also finding myself to be just as bitchy a few days after also. It's like I have a 2 week window of being cheery and happy.

Tomorrow's Friday and we're back to having a glorious long weekend so I'm going to find my happy place again. Being angry and annoyed constantly is so frustrating because I'd love to have a great and satisfying day but it's as if my whole being is telling me I can't because I'm being constantly reminded of the things that have pissed me and will piss me off. It's ridiculous I know but I can't help it.

I should calm down. Angry me is not attractive.

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