Insecure Like You

Since I'm doing tremendously awful for mid term (I can freakin' feel the failures handed to me one by one, of course Add Maths will be the first one. Expected), I vow to study this coming 2 week break. And I swear to God, kali ini akan menjadi (!) (Y)

I've made a timetable to be printed and I shall stick by it no matter how busy that day will turn out to be. Possible, si? It's not so much for the A's (ok, fine, it is), I just don't want to look like a dumbass amongst my friends who just so happen to be the smartest girls in my class/form/world. Getting an A less for PMR made me felt left out and I wasn't happy about that. I'm STILL not happy. So yeah, back to where I was, the whole freakin' reason I want to get good grades is to show the people who DON'T BOTHER ASKING HOW DID YOU DO BUT INSTEAD RUSH ALONG TO THEM KID GENIUSES BECAUSE PEOPLE LIKE ME (who lacks A's) TAK WORTHY SANGAT NAK TANYA. 

That's it. It's not about making my report card look good (for once), I just want to make myself satisfied.

So that's what I'll do. This 2 week holiday will be spent out, undoubtedly, but it's gotta be balanced with my studying. Seriously. I'm not kidding. I'm freakin' serious about this whole thing, I'm excited and anxious to see if it goes right. I have 2 subjects per day which will lessen the rate of confusion that happens like, almost all the time.  

Kata nak dapat straight A's for SPM, if I don't buck up NOW than how do hell do I expect to get 10As kan ? 

But then again, all work and no play makes Nadia a dull girl. So after exams, I shall ;

1 Catch up on my beauty sleep. I need to correct my troubled sleeping cycle. It's unhealthy.

2 Read books where chemical formulae and just formulas in general aren't in sight. I vow to get back to my reading habits. It has been way too long since I've read a good book. Suggestions are welcomed. 

3 WATCH MOVIES !! I haven't stepped into a theater in the longest time and movies are up and about. But, I'm still counting the days Transformers hit the cinemas. #1 FAN !

4 Figure out how to install Limewire. I'm not that thick, I've tried doing it but I gotta upgrade this laptop which I have no clue where to start with. Biar la.

5 PAVILLION BANGSAR, bak sini

6 Pig out at Aina's and talk endlessly :')

7 Sleepover at Illi's ! 

8 KELUAR