A spoiler for Agama.
When Ustazah (my class teacher for 2 years) handed me my result, she looked disappointed and my heart just fell off my chest. But I didn't get it. I could see all A's. Was this just a joke ? Usually teacher's do that to you.
But than of course, the last subject was Agama and there sat my B.
I had a mix of emotions. I was ecstatic that I managed to get A's for Science (ESPECIALLY!), Sejarah and Geography. Over the moon ecstatic because I was more than sure to get less than that.
But at the same time, I was so crushed. B for Agamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa ?!?!?!?!?!
So that was why Ustazah seemed upset. She kept apologising to me afterward claiming it was partially her fault which I don't understand at all. She's been nothing but fantastic these past 2 years. Will miss her dearly.
Of course I cried. Cried so much and hugged my friends. I was so proud of them, regardless, because of how they've accomplished so much and worked so hard (seeeeee, Belinda and Brenda, told you dpt straight A's!).
In a way, amongst all my friends, I felt left out because of not getting those 8A's.
My good friends all achieved them. And I didn't. You know how that feels ? You can't join them and jump/skip joyously. OK FINE, JEALOUS NAK MATI.
But like I said, other than that one atom of jealousy (chyeah right!), I am entirely proud of them. So proud, I can cry (': (drama gila) Also, am so very grateful to them for everything they've tirelessly taught me (Especially Belinda for sitting behind me and tried to not get annoyed because I selalu pusing kerusi to you and ask for help in Geo, Maths and everything else).
When my mum came, she smiled so broad, it could reach her ears, I swear. She then pulled me for a hug and in a way, I was surprised. I'd thought she'd be all, 'Ah, it's ok. There's still SPM!'.
But she was proud of the 7 I got and she called everyone telling so. Embarrassing but in her words, 'Why waste away good news? You did fantastic!'.
I love her (':
My biggest thanks (tahu mcm receiving award HAHA) is to Pak Tok who called international to wish me a congratulations. Of course la kan, that just made my voice all choked up.
All in all, er.. I'm good.
I'm trying to cheer myself up.
Will tell you how that goes.
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