I've gotten over the whole materialistic needs. Now, I need to focus on myself. Besides, a pair of shoes isn't going to bring you anywhere (it does, literally but I'm not being literal). What excites me now is the thought of going to college and being able to drive and to backpack around Europe. I want to learn a lot of things and I'm at the age where I should. I want to be able to write, read, draw the way a 16 year old should. I want to be able to take a real Kodak moment. I want to be able to paint on a blank canvas. I want to be able to ride a bike (shut up!). I want to be able to cook and bake. I want to be able to be the friend in need. I want to be able to be the person everyone can rely on. I want to be able to lead.
I want to learn. I want to learn everything my heart desires. I'm only 16, I should be able to be living life the way it should be spent mid teen years. I love clothes and all that but right now, the spark for shopping splendor has dimmed (temporarily). I want to go places. That has always been my number one on my wish list since I was small. Clothes as brilliant as they can be, are just that. You outgrow them.
Camne nak cakap ? It's like, I love clothes but unlike a couple years back, I lost my knack in shopping. Bila suka gila babi tahap maximum oh-my-god-once-in-a-lifetime punya benda baru beli. All the cravings and wanting have not only left me feeling empty, it makes me feel unsatisfied because in the end, teringin je, bukan dapat pun. -_- So I'll try to not want more instead, learn. Because you tell me this, between buying something and achieving something, which of the two leaves you feeling more satisfied ?