The Green Gang Is Back With A Bang (!)

(Stole this pictures from Debra and Ila teehee, should have brought my camera BOOHOO)

We had our Annual Sports Day today. [This was a draft from god knows when]

And I can't ask for anything better than for my rumah sukan to win. AWESOME WAY TO END HIGH SCHOOL KAN :)))))))))))))))))))))

So I had to wake up real early, courtesy of Tania. I now see no point in activating my alarm clock because Tania comes in 5 minutes later anyway and wakes me up by opening my door and switching the light, making me blind in the process. Got out of the house a bit before 630 and was there when everyone in perbarisan was about to leave. It was such a nice feeling to see everyone there in their baju rumah sukan and all made up in the spirit of hari sukan. :')

Rumah Biru was very very impressive with their make up and detailed costumes. Sarah, Jei See, Karen, Nikki and I went to the stadium via Puan Hazlin though a part of me wanted to join in with my fellow green house members on the bus but oh well. Once there, I went to the tempat perbarisan and helped a bit with whatever was to be helped. Hah. Though rumah biru was obviously going to win for best banner and stuff, I wasn't really bothered because I was damn semangat rumah hijau. Hahahahahaha. Tak kisah lah lawa ke tak, I thought we were okay enough :') There was nothing we could do anyway. I STILL ♥ RUMAH HIJAU

I went up again in time to see people marching. And the usual ho hum singing and stuff. I bought face paint the day earlier so I painted some people's face and one by one started coming up to me requesting for the streaks I had on. Soon, a majority of them had their face paint on. Whoever got their face painted, I apologize for the obvious tan line you have now on your cheek hahahahahahaha ! Mine is quite obvious and I'm trying to figure out ways to even out my skin tone -.- ZZ Ah, it was worth it anyway.

The events started and I screamed my lungs out because I really wanted my rumah hijau to get them all. If I could be on the track and support, I would, but the teachers only allowed the participants to be on the track, boo :( But it's alright, I cheered all the way from the back. Such an awesome feeling lah k. Rumah Biru was (past tense k hehehehehehehahahaha) our biggest contender and Sanju was an ass hahahahaha some of the rumah biru and rumah kuning and rumah merah were over at rumah hijau punya tempat and there were all like BOO HIJAU. Er. Dude, where are you now ?!?!?!?!?!?! I love competition and I got very competitive though I didn't compete. Huh, wha- ? K.

It was so much fun but DAMN HOT LIKE ARE YOU KIDDING ME. You could fry a damn egg on the track. The scouts and KRS performed. Awwwwwwwwwww I GOT TO SEE HANIF AND HARIS DANCED TEEHEE Those boys get me all the time. The KRS danced to Hindustan and Malay songs and Hanif even did some shuffling WHICH WAS THE CUTEST THING ALIVE. Should've recorded the thing, especially when Hanif did that hand thing, I don't know lah how to describe but it was too cute. Hahaha.

Thennnn more events, and is it me or Rumah Biru has the best runners ? They always got first place -.- I was doubting first place for us though but whatever, we never know. Then, it was time for announcing the winners and we all had to be on the field, wtf panas nak mampus sial. Like, at one point, I was shivering because the heat was getting on to me. Announcing the winners was tense though I thought rumah Hijau did quite well. Rightfully, Biru won for Best Banner. And Rumah Hijau won for best perbarisan. And this year, they did it terbalik, by announcing first place rather than announcing the last place.

WE WONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN !!!!!!!!!! SO ALL RUMAH HIJAU WERE JUMPING FOR JOY AND SCREAMED AND I was so happy. Though I didn't contribute anything, sports wise, I was overwhelmed and so gila babi punya seronok.

I love sports day and I'm so glad it ended with Rumah Hijau winning :')

I can go on and on but I forgot o.o hahahahahaha

Things happen

School has been so unproductive these past few days. I'm getting bored.

• Been watching back my Grey's Anatomy and it's STILL addictive.
• School's mediocre with half of the class gone most of the time. I don't remember the last time the class was full.
• 2oo something days to SPM. Er..
• I may be semi obsessed with Rosie Huntington-Whiteley. Lawa gila TAHAP TAK FAIR TO US ALLLLLLLL
• Spent the Sunday in KL with Mama and Tania. Went to this place opposite Sogo. I don't know what it's called but basically it's a whole building dedicated to saree and stuff. Got mine ! Hahaha I'm stoked already
• I am craving for my pavlova and tapas :( I can't wait to drive lah. So if I feel like it, I can just drive to eat without waiting for the weekends. :(
• I have the weirdest mood swings.
• Watched Dear John and I still think The Notebook nabs the title OF THE BEST MOVIE EVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
• I'm done. I should go back to studying now.

BRAVO

I answered my add maths correctly yesterday and it made my day. Hahahahaha. Puan Ooi told me "Nadia, I know you have been studying. I can tell." and it hit me. She is the first grown up to ever tell me that. Which is refreshing because at least SOMEONE notices I've been doing some revision. My parents don't. Which is, I think, universal. All parents don't believe their children when they tell them they've studied. And I don't know why. It's actually quite frustrating.

I'm in my room. Laptop abandoned in the corner. Actually understanding Chemistry and when I do my work, my answers are actually right. I make notes. I actually MAKE them. Coloured pens and highlighters and markers and the works. I have several exercise books which when I get stumped at a question, I have 2 reference books at standby and I read every word to make sure I didn't miss anything. I have several work books at once so I do them together so I get familiar with the questions. And if I get an answer wrong, I'll go 'OHHHHHHHHHH!' and then write the new information in my notes. I actually do that.

But then, of course, when I decide to step out of my room to watch some television (which I feel like I haven't done in 6 years), my dad will be "TV je satu hari, tak nampak pun baca buku!". Or if I go out on weekends (FYI, weekends = 2 days. Weekdays where I go to school and for tuition classes and study = 5 days. Last time I checked, weekdays are painfully longer than weekends), it feels like a sin to get out of the house because I've been accused of not studying. Maybe they should install a camera in my room. K no, that'd be so wrong on so many levels.

I'm hungry now.

I want this. Like, really really want this.

Shopper

It is, actually. I'm not a huge shopper like how some people are. I used to have that irritating feeling of 'I HAVE TO BUY SOMETHING FOR THE SAKE OF BUYING SOMETHING'. It got tiring after many years. And now I shop very little. I haven't had a decent pair of shoes since Raya and the last baju I bought was.. ok, quite recent. And it was nice too. But it's an awesome feeling, isn't it. Especially if you're like me when you find faults in everything right down to the zipper and stitch. And when you finally get that one thing that gets you ticking in all the boxes in that mental checklist you have in mind. But then, there's the fitting of your choice. Which pisses me off half the time I find something I'm in love with only to find it either i) WTF THIS SIZE SUCKS ii) WTF THIS COLOUR MAKES ME LOOK NEON iii) WTF I'LL HAVE TO OWE YOU MY LIFE LAH LIKE THIS SO EXPENSIVE !!

But hey ho. Things happen for a reason. I stick by a rule. I'll only buy it if it's something I really really really really want and I can't live with it and for the next 24 hours I'll be thinking of it and only it. Which happens seriously as rare as seeing me running.. for fun o_____o

Ok not funny ha ha.

HMM. I feel like going shopping. I feel like spending money.. what's left of it anyway. I NEED A BREAK.

Everybody Knows

The jacket is amazing.

Anyway, hi. I've been spending my days cooped up in my room, attempting a go at studying. It's not bad (maybe cause baru chapter yang first first hahaha).

I can't wait for SPM to be over but it's only April and I actually want SPM to be lama lagi because I still have a million and one things to study for. But, people ! How awesome possum would it be to not wake up at 6 every freaking morning !! :') And I can be able to go out on weekdays again ! Hahahaha. And of course there's driving. But I'm having a crisis (?). Should I or shouldn't I start learning how to drive ? I want to start because I can't wait to get behind the wheel. But I don't want to because i) I'm actually quite terrified with the idea that I'm going to drive around a machine and big cars scare me ii) It'll mean I'd have to sacrifice my studying time to study for driving kan ? And all those classes and I should be more concerned about tuition classes and school as opposed to going for the bengkel and whatnot kan ? And my dad doesn't seem to be fond of the idea of me driving just yet. So it's a bit of a waste if I do go for classes now sebab bukannya boleh drive pun kalau dapat license kan. HO HUM.

I LOVED PMR like actually liking the times I studied and the times I would go to the library to study. Which is odd. So I'm praying my mojo to study returns. Because God forbid I fail my SPM. I'm actually quite desperate to get A's now. Desperate kalahkan Teri Hatcher on Desperate Housewives. Ha ha, laugh, people, laugh !!

K bodohnya k bye

PINK

I want !

Hi.

I miss 2009, a certain boy, La Bodega, Raya, my hair, Glee (THOUGH I JUST WATCHED THE NEW EPISODEE HEHEHEHEHE), holidays, being excited, dressing up, buying things, eating pizza with Aina at her place, That's So Raven, Alexis' pavlova cake, Barbie, my old crushes (hahahaha sebab macam dah lama tak jumpa), studying Geography in Form 3, normal sleeping time like when I was 7 where 930 was the latest you can go, reading.

K BYE

"He who is not jealous, is not in love"

I've lost a friend. Maybe I haven't, but I feel like I have. I don't understand why it's so hard to talk now. And I'm trying to figure out what went wrong but nothing comes up. And don't you dare say I'm making it awkward. I very well remember when I went up to you and began a conversation only to be shrugged off and I'm left standing there, feeling like a freaking fool and stumped.

And I hate the fact that no matter how much I study, results don't budge. WTF ATLEAST AN IMPROVEMENT SIKIT MANA PUN TAK BOLEH KE ? :'((((((((( Bloody frustrating sial. And I don't know why some of you have the nerve to be damn inconsiderate and kononnya complain about your marks padahal tinggi je ? Just shut up and be grateful can ? ORANG BELAJAR KAU TAHU TAK, BELAJAR SAMPAI MALAM MALAM TAK TIDUR, and I'm still back at square one.

Can I just stop.

Retro Metro

Phew ! Ila's birthday was awesome possum ! Was one of the earliest so borak borak jap and the table collapsed. Slowly, the party people arrived. MALAYSIAN TIMING WHAAAAAAT

Kaveetha menepati tema ! Retro metro dirty fellow k ! Hahahaha. Everyone else looked stellar as always ♥

• As per usual, dancing was the main agenda. Lights were switched off completely and everyone danced. 'Cept for me and a few good others. Amy, Li May, Kaveetha and Lian as well as the birthday girl herself, danced like maniacs ! Party animalssssss xoxo hahaha
• Kept going in and out for drinks because it was hot but it's alright, it's okay sebab lagi best macam tu. Baru nampak macam dalam club o______o
• The birthday cake which was this Chanel handbag in pink was brought out by Aiman and everyone sang Happy Birthday. Kuat gila pulak tu awwww so sweet lah can die like that ! HEHEHE.
• And then there was the opening of the birthday presents time. Ila was so cute bila bukak birthday presents dia !! Hahahahaha, excited gila bukak semua presents :') AND DAMN NASIB BAIK GILA TAK BELI THAT CHAINED BACKPACK FOR HER SEBAB YAHI DAH BELI ! :( But it's all good, I hope you liked mine (and Tania's) anyway !
• Apa lagi ehhhhhh. OH YAH, took a lot of pictures, of course. And I brought my camera so lagi lah banyak. I posted them on facebook and turned out all of em were small, hati patah berkecai ribuan keping (?). So I had to upload a brand new batch. They're like 369 photos but I only uploaded 199 haha. Penat lah k.

THANKS ILA FOR HOSTING AN AWESOME POSSUM PARTY, YOU KNOW WE LOVE YOU X 1000000 KAN :')

SO TODAY

• Woke up to a phone call -.-
• Got ready for Ikea.
• Ate my meatballs. And got carried away with chicken wings too.
• Went to the Market Place and also got carried away with unneccesarry things like say, PRETTY LOOKING STRAWS AND PAPER PLATES !! Hahahahahaha. I also don't know why. Everytime I go to Ikea, lagi nak ada rumah sendiri so that I can buy everything in Ikea :B
• Bought a new pillow and wrapping paper cause the wrapping paper at Ikea rocks your socks.
• Spotted a bookshelf that I want sangat sangat. Cannot describe because I'm no good at describing.
• Mum says she'll get it by the end of the month along with a new bed and a make up table which I'm desperate for because I've been doing my eyeliner by squatting down on the floor because the mirror is too short. K WTF NVM
• And my room clearly needs some storage space, you seriously can find Neverland under my bed. Ok no lah but you get what I meant.
• My mum dropped me off at OU and headed to meet up with the twins, Grace, Ashley, Hakim and Hafiz. Skipped on waffles and opted for a very masam ice lemon tea. I don't know why I always order ice lemon tea. Bukan lah sedap mana.
• Went up to the futsal thingy for a while. Then came down because Brenda Belinda wanted to do some shopping.
• Got a new top :B Liked the skirt but my mum is going to scream if I got another one seeing I leave my other skirts at home, unattended and collecting dust. BAH
• Walked around aimlessly with the twins and Karen later and went to O'Briens for a bit.
• Cotton On to meet with the others.
• And left for Delicious for early dinner with my mum and Tania.
• KENYANG, thanks ah spicy seafood spaghetti, serious thanks.
• Went up to Nike cause my mum wanted to inquire about shorts for my dad (!?) And my feet started to hurt thanks to those wedges I had to wear today. Dahlah jalan banyak gila. And I haven't worn those in a long time, asyik pakai flats je, so it was hard. So I changed shoes with the new ones I bought from Cotton On HEHE
• Grocery shopped at Cold Storage and back at home we were.

I'm tired. I'M SO GIDDY AND EXCITED THAT SCHOOL HAS MONDAY OFF Y

Hari Jadi Ila

This is Ila on her sixteenth birthday.

You're awesome possum lah k ! I'm glad you masuk 3 Edison and glad that you sat beside me in form 4 and in form 5 :) Eh, form 3 pun kan ? 3 tahun berturut turut ! Hahahahaha. Thank you for hearing me out masa form 3 boleh ingat lagi yang kita borak kat corridor tu hahahaha and in form 4, it was the best year sebab I can't remember being serious in anything because of Hafeez and Hafiz sitting behind us. Asyik gelak je kerja, patutlah add maths fail :( Hahahahaha. You're the life of the party.. every party lah basically ! Hehehehe. Thanks for everything, me love. God bless and I hope you get pretty pretty presents and I hope you had a stellar birthday ! Kita dah 17 lah Ila :') More years of friendship to come, I promise you !

HAPPY SEVENTEENTH BIRTHDAY, ILA !! Y

Er..

I don't know if it's affirmative or not but I think I might have my study mojo back (which I lost after PMR ended. Hah!).

It feels good to answer questions. Correctly. I've been cooped up in my room studying for this stupid diagnostic. Motive for diagnostic exam.. ? Macam katak di bawah tempurung sikit.

Dahlah tak pergi tadi for Chemistry I & II ! WTFFFFF MY DAMN DRIVER. I was awake by 630 and was ready for school by 650 - 700. And we waited for my driver.. and waited.. and waited. We gave up at 8 am so we didn't go to school and it's not cause I didn't want to go to school k !! Not my fault. I really wanted to sit for Chem so I can get it over and done with (and I heard it was hell on paper).

Bila nak start dapat A's ni, Nadia ? Boleh tu boleh tapi malas gila sial.

Ok my new plan ;

1) Stick notes all over my room making my room look even more small and cramped. Ah, who cares. Imagine the awesome feeling when SPM is over and I can koyak koyak everything off the walls ! OOOH

2) Be awesome possum in every chapter and do all the exercise in the world sampai can vomit words and numbers !

3) Restrict outings to a minimum. This is actually quite achievable now that I'm getting sick of malls.

4) HEHEHE I'm guilty of skipping tuitions. So I'm going to push myself to get to tuition even if Mr Nathan hates it when I'm late. BETTER LATE THAN NEVER hohoho.

5) Sleep early can ?

I know it in my gut I can do this.

YAY K NEW SEMANGAT

Physics tomorrow, studying like shit slow, I hate the jabatan of whothefreakcares for doing this to us SO GODDAMN EARLY IN THE YEAR. I know you have good intentions of making us study but I mean, can chilling milling take a pill or not ?

K bye back to Studyville ; Population : KL students.

I've always wanted to say that hahahahahahahahahahaha where's the humour in here I don't know you tell me malas to put fullstop k bye

Ghairah

K, then how does one become 'passionately curious' ? Hmmmmmmmm

So hi.

My diagnostic can be blamed for my non updates. And I have nothing to update pun. So bosan lah k ! :( April is nearing in (T minus 3 hours and 25 minutes) and I feel like I haven't done anything pun ! Scary. But I keep telling 'ALA SPM LAMA LAGI' so that I won't get freaked when yes, I do know in fact that I am freaked that SPM is this year !!!

I have so many plans after SPM and I can't wait for it to finish but at the same time, nak SPM lamaaaa lagi so I can get my act together and do it well. But ho hum. I have Chemistry and Biology III tomorrow and instead of reading up on experiments, I'm here. My priorities are as messed up as Tiger Woods.

I've been gila ultra lazy. I'm even lazy to go out which is quite bizarre. I don't usually turn down an outing (though I did go to KLCC last weekend). But I rather stay in my room. Which is slowly morphing into a dump. The books have not only conquered the study table, but it has now moved onto my bed and bedside table. K actually tak lah, my bedside table got a lot of magazines hahahaha. My bed lah basically. But I'm too lazy to clean up ! My masalah is timbun-ing.

Wha- ?

I'm done with my Tasawwur, BM, English, Maths, Agama and Biology Paper I and II. Which is 12 papers down.

Which leaves 11 more. Ick.

Mother

My mother turns 42 today ! She'd kill me if she knew I told how old she's now but I don't know why. ANYWAY

I'm very close with my mum, she'd tell me things and I'd tell her my share of stuff. One of the pros about the fact that she's a teacher in my school (ok, well.. used to) is that she knows the guys I'm talking about. Hahahahaha. And we like to eat pavlova tahap maksimum ! I've inherited her curls and love for books and Grey's Anatomy HEHE. She'd still tell me stories about her university years and I love it when she talks about her experience there because it just makes me want it more.

She makes the world look prettier. I'm a glass half empty girl, and my mum takes in 'glass half full !' as a personal motto. She makes everything look easy, it's a wonder how she manages to make everything simple. She's the type of lady who comes into a room and you know she's there because of her laugh and well, my mum is kinda loud so she laughs like the huge laugh. I remember when we were little, she would ALWAYS correct our grammar, any time of day. Now, I correct my youngest sister. My mum would always tell us to wash our feet before jumping on her bed and that's stuck too. I can't get into bed if I haven't washed my feet. It has become a habit ! My mother brought us up to be independent even at a young age and I'm glad she did. Superwoman would be an understatement to describe my mum. I don't think she knows but everyone around her loves her and would do anything for her because of her generosity and kindness of heart. She's amazing lah, I don't know how else to say it. She's like one of the few people who still smiles and say Good Morning to random strangers. And she's my favourite person in this whole wide world and forever will be.

Basically, my mum is awesome possum and I love love love love love her forever and ever and ever :) God bless her for being the best mother to us ♥

Happy 42nd Birthday !

N

Remeo & Jluiet

My diagnostic exams have started !

So far, I've done my tasawwur and our BM was today. Fooh. My BM the bomb lah. I made a smart move by doing my karangan berpandu first instead of the pilihan one. Enough said, I was chasing time and by the time we had to send in our paper, I was still short of 1 and a half perenggan. Say whuuuuurt. So I crapped on my second essay, I think even terpesong like shit. Ah wtf CRY AND DIE.

Tomorrow is English and I don't know where to start. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. I'm so stoked though that this Friday we can skip school because it's a Science paper.

And I think I'll be taking my add maths again but I'm going to go all out then. Haih. Fickle minded.

K BYE

Poke-face

PIKACHU DAMN CUTE

I've been going out a lot these past few days. I feel bad for not staying at home to study but it's basically impossible. Maybe I should be technology stripped...

.. k no.

• Diagnostic is next week.
• My sister turns 11 this Saturday. Yay Iman ! xoxoxox
• She wants a Nerf Gun (?) At 11, I wanted everything Barbie.
• My granddad will be 71 on Tuesday. I love my Pak Tok :')
• Mama turns 42 next Thursday !! :)
• Zara haz nice shoes and bags now. Bags lah especially. Rambang mata.

K nothing now blank otak k bye

Frustrated

Why aren't adults understanding ?

• Who has that 'I haven't seen you studying, Nadia.' 'I have!' 'When?' 'Tadi, I just finished' 'Tak nampak pun pegang buku' moments ? Takkan I want to study in front of you. Takkan I want to make it my sole mission to come find you and sit in front of you and THEN baru bukak buku ? I thought that was what my room is for ?
• And apparently, maths questions kan, 'If you do one question, and understand it properly, semua senang je!'. Ha-ha. Try doing it kthxbye.
• 'Asyik keluar je, belajar tak!' This one frustrates me. I do go to tuition kan, I do go to school kan, I do study in my room kan. This ONE time I want to go out with my friends, it's like I've abandoned my studies.

You were 17 once, weren't you ? I bet it was never as hard as how 17 year olds have to go through these days. So let me breathe.

Oh lupa..

A HUGE ASS FREAKING COLOSSAL CONGRATULATIONS TO MY SENIORS OF BATCH '09 WHO ACHIEVED FREAKING FANTASTIC GILA BABI PUNYA RESULTS, DAMN HAPPY FOR YOU LOT !!!!!!!!!!!!

We got some huge shoes to fill now k !

You're making me happy these days, boy.

Persistent

Well, today.

SPM results finally were out. Damn, I'm so happy for those who got fantastic results, by fantastic I mean ada A+ k hahaha. I like the '09 batch so I'm pleased that they got what they deserved ! :') Insaf terus k, balik balik rumah, BELAJAR BIO hahahahahaha. Even had a book with me which I actually read during commercial breaks while watching Idol. Damn semangat.

Holidays are next week, YESSSSSSS LAH. I'm going to utilize it and study for the diagnostic.

K tak tahu what else to say now, Hafiz ah suruh update. I GOT NOTHING TO BLOG, HOW ? BYE ! x

Pointlesz

You would think I would have a nice weekend.

I guess in a way, it WAS nice. I stayed in and did nothing but simultaneously completing Sudoku puzzles and watching Private Practice. And eating. I was hoping for a more fun one though but whatever, at least I caught up on sleep.

I had late breakfast and late lunch and so therefore, no dinner. The Kitkat I had made me dizzy. Could it be expired ? MALAS AH NAK CHECK.

I feel bad for not attending my aural tomorrow. Because of the whole transportation problem. I was looking forward to get it done and over with. Sigh sigh sigh

So no, seriously, all I did for the first half of my day was a phone call, breakfast, and went back into bed. I'm gross on the weekends.

I might as well do in point form since every isi is like 2 lines -.- K i don't care. I feel bad for not studying. I'll start next week EVEN IF IT KILLS ME. K tak lah.

I WANT TO WATCH NINE ! As well as Alice In Wonderland. It was and still is one of my favourite Disney movies so I'm looking forward to see Tim Burton's spin on it.

I've been sleeping a lot. Like, I can sleep back to back. Which is sorta gross. HEH. Skipped school today. And ho hum, boring day at home. I finally ate my favouritest nasi lemak eversss after so long not eating it. A good way to start the day among other things.

A week long holiday is on its way and I'm adamant to use it up for studying seeing how Diagnostic is sometime after that. Babi teruk k my intervensi marks. :(

K NOW I GOT NOTHING TO SAY K BYE

I'm semi obsessed with Kim Noorda. She's a beauty.

Confusion

Apa ni, semua orang ? Can take a chill pill or not ? Can kan ? SO TAKE LAH !

I've dropped Add Maths officially. I feel like the huge weight lifted off my shoulder. I went to Puan Ooi and said 'Teacher, I need to talk to you' in which she took a seat HAHA and then I broke the news 'I don't mean to offend you in anyway but I think I'm going to drop add maths' and she (surprisingly) said 'Don't worry, you go ahead. Don't feel bad about me. Whatever's best for you, you go ahead. If you can't cope, then don't bother and concentrate on the ones you can score. Don't feel bad about me, Nadia' DALAM TONE YANG MACAM BAIK GILA MACAM ALAMAK KESIANNYA I FEEL SO BAD NOW !! And then bila nak keluar staff room tu, I said to her 'You sure it's okay?' then she actually stood up and said 'Haiyaaa Nadia, it's alright! Really, it's fine!' and she hugged me tau takkkkkk ! Hahahahahaha macam so tiba tiba tapi macam ala baiknya, nak ambik lah add maths balik sebab Puan Ooi baik sangat ! :')

Hahahahahahaha so that was it. People, I should know what I'm capable of doing and what I'm not capable of doing so please don't go around saying I shouldn't drop add maths and doubting my decision because it IS my decision and I know in my gut and soul that the most I can get for add maths won't reach 50 -.- Kira kalau dapat 30-40 pun macam bagus gila and I shouldn't be saying that kan. Ni bukan PMR, ni SPM SIAAAAAAL. Gila ke nak settle for Cs and Ds ? So yeah, don't give me that look !

Ok nak belajar Physics now now nowww k bye

THAT GREEN IS GORGEOUS GRRR DIE DIE OUT OF ENVY

School was boring. I'm thinking and I think I really want to do this ; drop Additional Maths. It's been a year and I'm still as clueless as can be. It's crazy stressing and I have Biology, Physics and Chemistry to thank that for, another subject dedicated to maths only BITCH HARDER. I'm not a maths person so I mean, I'm struggling so don't go and look at me like that. Yeay that look like you're saying 'WHAAAAAAT? ADD MATHS KUT ! PENTING GILA KUT !' yeah, memang ah penting if you want to have it as a solid foundation to whatever you want to do as a career. I don't plan on taking anything maths related. As in, maths biasa tambah tolak tu mesti ah, tapi WTF SHOULD I LEARN ALL THE GRAPHS FORRRRRR :'(

... And I just remembered I had homework to do and they're due tomorrow. HOLY MACAROLES

Nude

A cousin of mine turned 12 today ! Is it me or are we growing up too fast ? I still can clearly recall our sleepovers and how we would play sister-sister and masak-masak and now we're so occupied with everything material. I'm in a way glad that I wasn't exposed to the internet at THAT young of a age like how some are these days. Man, seriously, it's ridiculous to know some 2-3 year olds have iTouch or some sort. DUDE, YOU'RE 2 ! What ever happened to playing outside and running around. No kid should be in a corner listening to their iPods. It's wrong.

I ran off topic.

My day was mundane. Woke up for breakfast at Raju's. It is of no doubt that the place serves the best roti canai. Macam tempat lain tak boleh/tak akan lawan roti canai at Raju's. Thennnnnn we went to Uptown to wait for my dad to finish his meeting so we waited at Vichuda yang serve minum lambat gila kalah siput babi. Papa took so long so we went to Jasema. Got myself a Harper's Bazaar (I know.. offtrack, orang beli la BUKU SPM!) but it said Fashion Issue and I flicked through and it looked good so I got it. THEN baru move to the buku sekolah punya part. Got myself some books.. and a pen. And I don't know how that should be public knowledge, SO USELESS.

Went back to Uptown and got my dad. And we went home. Turned down a trip to the salon because macam sayang nak potong rambut. Slept til 7, and we went to Alexis for Amelia's birthday do. Angelhair aglio olio is responsible for me feeling full as crap. Blah. I hate feeling so bloated.

What else.. ? Lady Marmalade is on and I googled what 'voulez vous coucher avec moi ce soir' meant and it means 'Would you sleep with me tonight?' Hahahahahaha okay, will keep that in mind o.o

I'M TALKING CRAP AT 11:02 PM KTHANKSBYE

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Hi

Skipped school yesterday because I feel icky and blah. Not solid enough to actually skip school but whatever. Malas k.

MAAAAAAN, my days are so boring, after typing out 'Hi', I went blank. Today pretty much was the same. Laid in bed, contemplated on studying, failed studying, makan, watched TV, continued lying in bed, and ate some more. Studied a chapters worth of Biology at night. It's a start.

Read the first few pages of Dear John and it got me engaged in it but I had to pull myself away for Biology's sake because well, just because I'm lacking behind in my studies and a good read should be put on hold til I get everything together. Diagnostics in a months time and I think it's bull. Can it at least hold off for another 2 months ? I'm still trying to put my shit together. Tensi.

Sudoku

I posted this up mainly cause Chase Crawford is front and centre.

My day was so boring. Woke up relatively late, I don't know why. Only went down in time for lunch. Spent my day doing god knows what. Slept again in the afternoon because the couch was so sedap. My mum cooked laksa today and for the first time too ! And after reading Illi's tweet, I craved Muhibbah. So I'm hoping we can go and eat there tomorrow YUM YUM YUM.

When the flying puck am I going to start studying ? WHENNNNNNNNNNNNNN

I bought a Sudoku book yesterday after trying out one in Dina's book.. and I'm addicted. Like, I can't stop doing it. I may give up at times but I end up doing it anyway. Macam tak boleh homaigod like howww. Tapi best. So, who cares. BUT MY PHYSICS/BIO/CHEM LIKE DAMN CRAP K, HOW TO GET STRAIGHT A'S :'((((

K bye bye wanna go do some Sudoku til I barf numbers bye

My day

Unlike most schools, my school reopened on Thursday which I still feel was unfair for the ones celebrating Chinese New Year. The streets were empty, I literally could run and jump as and when I like because everybody seemed to be sleeping in. Sarah greeted me with a huge ass present :') I love it to bits so thank you and much love to you, sweets.

Skipped tuition cause I slept in (is there any other excuse when it comes to me on Friday afternoons ? No) and well, that was it.

I'm stoked for Idol, the guys this year are all good. I'm especially rooting for Andrew Garcia cause man, that guy can sing his gut out. And Toddrick. And well, semua lah kan. I can't wait :B Every year, man, they never fail to hook me in.

Useless information in point form

• I hate my new earphones. They are a waste of money, 50 bucks down the drain.
• Jeggings are freaking revolutionary, they're my new favourite thing.
• I am loving Sudoku.

k bye x

Another One

HI

Back from my usual trip back to Penang. It was okay though we pretty much spent it at home. No beaches and such. I don't know why people make it such a huge deal that I skipped beaches when I go to Penang, dah macam biasa sangat lah, I've been going there since I was born so it's nothing new.

Trips to the nearby mall and well, more food. More and more food. It's nearly impossible to stop eating. Mak Tok wants us all big and fat and she won't stop cooking til we do.

No studying has been done which I feel guilty about but I'm too damn lazy. I did open my Chemistry book.. only to leave it opened like that after 15 minutes of reading. HEH. I need to do something to somehow extend my attention span.

That's pretty much it. I'm pretty happy that I'm home now and that school is tomorrow.

I seriously have to start studying.

Loves

• Valentines day celebration today at school. Roses + sweet messages made my day.
• Went to OU at 4 to buy Jei See's and Hakim's birthday present for their surprise 'do at Kaveetha's. But last minute cancellation on Hakim's part because he was feeling sick but the party was still on (thank god for dual birthdays).
• Haris made the day even more enjoyable with his spontaneous humour.
• Hi you, it's been so long, thanks for bringing back all the memories. :')
• Surprise party was surprisingly fun. Mosquitoes aside, the party consisted of singing and dancing like in a bonfire. Ila was so cute with her hyper dancing and singing !! Hahahaha.
• RIP Alexander McQueen, a great loss to the industry.
• Promised myself to start studying this week tapi so far, satu hari je. HEH.
• Procrastination go shoo away.
• Lovely day today. Lovely lovely lovely.

X

VDAY

What am I going to do when the best part of me was always you ?

-Breakeven by The Script

HI ! It's already Thursday. Damn fast time goes by. A bit worrying but hell. Chinese New Year is this Sunday and 3 more days of holiday for us. Hoorah hoorah ! I hope to get some studying done because my intervention marks are far from even 'mediocre'. I think study wise, I've already hit rock bottom (I mean, have you seen my add maths ? Epic failure) so the only way from here is up and only up.

• Finally inquired about a gym. I now only need mum's consent. I'm only 17 and I can already feel all the energy draining out of me. Gah.
• Valentines Day (as in the movie) is out. Happy happy joy joy
• My add maths teacher pulled me aside this week to tell me how I'm coping. Clearly I'm not. Can I just drop this subject ?
• Chinese New Year this Sunday which means holidays for us. But stores will be closed so there's no point really in going out. Heh.
• American Idol last night was (Y) Andrew Garcia's rendition on Paula Abdul's one hit wonder made me love him even more. And that Didi Benami can sing. And Ellen makes watching it all even better.

Cheers x

Plaits and Braids

I want to do this with my friends. A huge circle and everyone does french plaits. That'll be fun.

Today was relatively mundane. Don't get me wrong, I really wanted to go for cross country but I was too tired (I don't know from what, I get tired so easily nowadays -____-). But I woke up at 730 anyway and got dressed hoping Uncle Reza could send me but he didn't pick up his phone. I was already decked in my baju rumah sukan k. Damn sad. Hahaha. Regretted not waking up earlier but oh well. I actually surveyed gyms online hoping to enroll in one with my mum (has been on our agenda since.. forever) but gave up.

Since only my dad, Iman and I were at home, we decided to go out for lunch and resorted to Chinoz at the Gardens mall. Had my usual salt beef sandwich which was up tops. Even had affogato (?) which was aptly described as 'vanilla ice cream bathed in espresso'. I hated it. Tak sedap langsung.

Had the worst menstrual pains of all time and I had to go search for a pharmacy and bought those pink Panadol pills and sat down for a good half hour because walking seemed like a form of torture. ANYWAY met up with Papa back at Gardens and I went to Borders to get myself the new Teen Vogue. And well, I was in bloody pain the whole time.

Went home and that was pretty much it. My whole day. -_-

I have this 10 hour BM seminar at UM and I'm contemplating to go because of this period pain but I really want to go. But it's 10 hours. And we have to be in school by 7. Freaking ridiculous seeing how the seminar starts only at 9. Huge rush for nothing.

Sleeping now.

Cinta

I love everyone.

Over The Moon

Dreaded going to school but dah Friday kan, might as well, besides sampai 12:30 je kan. So I went. And I was so mengantuk and the boys thought I was emo sebab pagi pagi dah macam senyap. Hahahaha. School was alright, draggy but that's nothing different. Friday punya timetable macam penat lah. Add maths > Maths > Bio > Physics. Stressed !

Came back home and had lunch and slept. Til 3 ! My initial intention was to just skip my Physics tuition but my dad kept insisting so I did anyway. Tak basuh rambut pun sebab dah lambat gila ! Got there half an hour late and studied mirror/lenses/DAH LUPA. Mum fetched me and we went to +wondermilk because Tania pesan cupcakes. So indulged in my baked potato and Super Fries. Freaking yum !! Dah lama gila tak makan.

Got home and Mum sent me back first before taking Iman to get her dinner.

BUKAK BUKAK JE PINTU RUMAH,

SURPRISEEEEEE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TERKEJUT TAHAP TAK TIPU LANGSUNG !!!! I WAS SO SURPRISED because I thought that if anyone does a surprise party for me, they'd fail because I can (supposedly) smell a surprise miles and miles away. But they proved me wrong. There was Sarah, Ila, Amy, Aimi, Aidit, Hafiz I., Hafiz R., Darren, Johann, Shahrain, Marc, Anis, Asif, Hisham and Hussein. Sumpah terkejut gila babiii, I had to steady myself. Aidit and Darren and my amazing sister planned this all out and they're freaking good at planning all this ! Freaking secretive too, at that. Tadi kat sekolah, they were all around school, and I thought they were involved with their own rumah sukan sebab cross country is tomorrow so I didn't suspect anything at all. Ada one time tu, Sarah ajak Ila keluar jap, SUMPAH ingat sebab KH punya benda tapi taaaaaak. And Aidit was like 'Why do you think we kept going out of class to jumpa orang?' Hahahaha I seriously thought it was all for rumah sukan and stuff. And apparently everyone knew ! It amazes me up til now that EVERYONE WHO KNEW ABOUT THAE PARTY KEPT MUM ABOUT THE WHOLE THING. Gila pandai tahap gaban nak keep a secret !! I'm so touched that they went through the trouble to check with some restaurants if they could accommodate 40 people but none could. So my surprise party was cancelled and my sister told me about this and honestly, I was a bit upset that it was cancelled but decided to let it go because there was nothing much I could do, takkan nak suruh dorang buat surprise -________-' Tapi sebab nampak 'emo', dorang buat jugak last last. I suspected that they were going to do it tomorrow (Saturday) sebab cakap nak 'hang out' to make up for my cancelled surprise party. Even my dear mother got into the act. She left her phone so she had to pinjam mine when my sisters called. MACAM SECRET SPY.

My mum was acting like her usual self and asking the question she'd normally would ask like 'What do you want for dinner?' and etc. Padahal my sister was telling her the current situation back at home like how many people were there and about food and drinks for them. BAGUS GILA K MY MUM BOLEH ACT ! Hahahahaha. I didn't suspect anything at all, like I've told you a million and one times already.

And I went home, tired, and I was already thinking of jogging for tomorrow (FIRST TIME!) but of course that was put on hold.

Though many couldn't make it (RACHAEL, SANJU, DEBRA, LI MAY, BRENDA, BELINDA, GRACE, JIA WEN, AND EVERYBODY ELSE!!) I was still the happiest girl tonight. It was a simple surprise do with pizza and sodas. Moved to the next house to play Truth and Dare and my new favourite game ; I Never or something like that lah hahaha. It's a game yang someone says 'I've never (done something you really haven't done)' and whoever who HAS done the thing has to stand up. HAHA. ILA TERER EH JUGAAAAAK

Nasib pergi tuition sebab kalau tak pergi, nanti macam slack sikit because everyone would be kelam kabut because I'm not supposed to be in the house and all. Thank God for Physics tuition that falls on Fridays ! ♥

I wish I could rewind the party all over again because for the first time in a long time, I fell in love with life and this party reminded me how amazing it can be with all the right people in your life at the right time.

I love my friends, who are amazing people for even thinking to plan this whole 'do. For going through all that planning (I know lah stress gila kan hahahahaha) and for discussing this behind my back the whole time through. I love my sister, Tania who was the mastermind behind this surprise. I love my mum for going with the flow and being a total sport about this. And Iman for successfully keeping this a secret dari dulu lagi because apparently she knew about this surprise even before I told her about TANIA's surprise party which was on January 17th. I'm so thankful for having such amazing people in my life.

I thank each and everyone of you from the bottom of my heart. Mark my words ; I'll remember this day til the day I die.

xx

Joe Jonas, are you kidding me ? ♥

Even Diamonds Start Out As Coals

• Pavilion yesterday.
• Had La Bodega for lunch and can I just tell you how fan-freaking-tastic the food is there ? I can't describe my love for the hot tapas they serve you.
• Topshop keeps failing me. It's like a whole lot of nothing of 2 floors. Dahlah mahal tak ingat dunia. Tried on a monochrome horizontally striped dress (which btw made me look more curvaceous than ever). It looked like it was trying to channel Herve Leger bodycon dresses but failed. HEH
• Cotton On Pavilion = Cotton On Body = best sleepwear ever.
• The mess that was Zara. I mean, really, clothes that are not hung properly (as in, betul betul senget) to them lying everywhere made me hate shopping there.
• The fake lashes in Mac were so tempting. I wonder how I'll look with long lashes.. MUST TRY
• Met Grace !
• My trip to La Bodega left me wanting more. Anyone up to treat me out, call me.